Am in bare cubicle...am eerily re-living Office Space and wish I had Dilbert comics to make deja vu complete. Feel the need to disregard pronouns...don't quite know why. Perhaps is unoriginal need to imitate Bridget Jones....definitely would be more sane working part time and going to school part time. Feel the need to strangle singing admissions counselor. Probably should avoid typing homicidal thoughts at work. More later.
So it's officially 2004...I had about a bottle and a half of wine, lots of good cheese and crackers, banged some pots, and watched a marathon of Sex and the City...until 4 IN THE MORNING. I haven't stayed up that late in a veeerrrry long time. Cullen's still asleep on the couch, so I'm blogging until he wakes up and pays attention to me ;)
I know it sounds stupid (and clichè), but my new year's resolution is to get down to 140...and I know I sang "I Enjoy Being a Girl" last night, but that's one part of "being a girl" I don't particularly like...the fact that we all obsess about our weight. You can blame society all you want, but in the end, it's up to you to come to terms with the way you view yourself and decide what's acceptable. I suppose for me 140 is acceptable...it's healthy and slim...and I don't seem to be able to maintain anything below that. Who am I kidding, I suck at maintaining any weight. Hence my new year's resolution.
I definitely need to go look for some new books...after listening to the hyper-females that work in OAS (Office of Admissions) with me, I'm definitely feeling the need to bulk up on some anti-vapid devices...plus that way I (hopefully) won't watch as much TV. The Discovery Health channel is informative, and shopping is fun, but there has got to be more to life than ambulances and shoes. Probably not in Kansas though. Hence my need to move...not so much just to KC, but to a different state. Overland Park's not exactly my idea of an interesting, unique place that I would want to spend a great deal of my time. Though it does have a Price Chopper, which makes it worth living there 'til I get my degree ;)
I've noticed that this blog is not going to be entirely truthful...after all, with my paranoia about others viewing my scribblings (or in this case, peckings), I tend to want to present a better front. Especially after what my junior high and high school diaries looked like, just ranting and ranting. They were just excuses to bitch about things. I'm not particularly angry right now, but I have a feeling that if I was, I wouldn't focus on it, which isn't entirely truthful. Hmm...it's not particularly interesting either, though. I suppose my blog is more of a catalog of the way I felt on different days, and important events that happened on those days, and how I felt then. So basically, a diary like my other ones, but with a little more polish and a little less anger. But I'm not exactly sure that's what I want out of it yet...but we'll see. More later.
Mmmm...new year's eve and I'm going to drink lots of wine and eat cheese...and get tomorrow off! And maybe I'll get a chance to go home and lay in my own bed and maybe take a shower in my own shower...a big maybe.
